Awesome is as Awesome does

As the big 21 approaches I can’t help but look at last year’s 20th where there were more friends. In the last year I am no longer talking to three of these friends. As much as I want to apologize I know it’s for the best if I don’t. I went to councelling for the stuff going on and I didn’t tell one of these people as she had been adament on me seeing someone when it wasn’t necessary. I wanted to quit school I spent a year fighting with myself not to drop out. But as I look back on all the crap it’s getting easier to forget. Why? Because of all the achievements I made, my grades improved, I have some of the closest, bestest friends I could have and an amazing boyfriend who supports me whatever. Just remember we can all become stronger better people I know I have :)

I’m just one of those people who minds there own business but drama seems to attract them. I was in art therapy to help deal with shit but I thought I had it under control, until today when I saw red again. I was just minding my own business going to the caf to get lunch when my three favorite people were standing there talking. Oh but when I walk past they stop their conversation and take the liberty to stare at me. Ok Person #1 I apologized to you, you seemed to accept it and oh look you are two faced and no longer talking to me! I’ve got my closure get over it and act your age. Person #2 we may have pissed you off on your birthday, get over is and also act your age which is a whole year older than person 1 and 3. As for person #3 I’ve never liked you, so keep your nose out of everyone’s business especially mine, you’ll begin to hate it when Person #2 begins to complain continuously!

Sorry for my rant but I feel these 3 people should be in art therapy drawing pretty pictures about their issues which they obviously have!

My councelor suggested I use my blog as a way of journaling a release of the tension or emotions and yeah I’m seeing a councelor. I should probably start at the beginning, why in the end I sank to that low of asking for help. I had a roommate in dorm, first year we were sisters, this year things got messed up, we’re no longer talking. Although I’m trying to find the courage to apologize for her and rebuild our friendship. I had another friend, turns out she was just using me for a taxi and in the end it turns out that her one ultimate goal was to isolate me from everyone around and well it back fired. After she told me I had to go talk to someone before christmas in not a nice way basically I had no choice I had to go. I realized that I have been blaming the wrong person for destroyng the friendship between me and my roommate. In fact Miss “You have to go talk to someone” was a key factor in it all. She tried with another friend and that friend realized what she was doing and well we broke free of her little finger. But now I have someone else trying to wrap me around their little finger except she’s treating me like I’m five and isn’t liking the fact that I’m not bowing down to all her needs in fact I’m being distant. That’s two people to tell me that in 2 months. I’m breaking free of the little fingers and living my life how I want. I’m no longer kissing their asses, I’m kicking them and they don’t like it!

Isn’t it amazing how the mind tells you, you have to do something but your body finally puts up a fight and the mind can’t win on that occasion.

cityofbonesclockworkangel:

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spudsexuall:

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I can’t even

omg

I can’t breathe

(via humorpotter)